From A Son To A Mother

I Miss You Mom
I miss you so much
When I first wake up in the morning
I wish i would see a smile on your face
Instead i get anxiety and start to pace
My mood goes down and up goes a frown
I wish you would accept me with your heart,
I yearn for your love, i yearn for your kiss, oh mommy  how much of you i miss.

The way you always managed
To make everything okay, until one day
When things got tough
i thought it wud get better.

But you never gave up, why me? why nqow?

Mommy where are you?
When the night sky is clear and full of stars,
I wish i was home and not hanging at bars

I wish i can tell u how i feel so lost and broken
Please take me back home.

Im trying to be good.
Im fighting.
Im fighting with all my might.

All im asking is for some love and the rest will come from above.
I love you Mommy dear, i need you here.

Where are you....

Is It My Son or Perhaps Me

Alot of things bother me. But this is what eats at me.
How many bucharim are found thrown out of home for reasons that make ZERO sense. And then the parents and family cry that they soak their pillow to sleep every night. Oy my son is not keeping Shabbos... isnt eating kosher... not wearing his hat and jacket....

Ya, you can take your son to Rebbes and get brachos, take him to therapists ... give him mussar lessons. None of that will help.

A child no matter the age craves a mothers love. A mother shouldnt love her child or not love her child according to his grade marks, his dresscode, his frumkeit.  Shame on those parents!! Every child is different. One will have payis and one wont. Your wondering, hmmm.... its 3am where is my 17yr old son???? Of course he doesnt want to come home to a yelling from his parents were he was and that they are not happy with him. Of course he stays out late until his parents are asleep.

No your son may not put his black pants on again, keep shabbos, light menorah or wear a yarmulka. But you definitely are not going to see him around much either. Until YOU change!!!

You want to stop crying about your son, then LOVE HIM!!!! LOVE HIM BECAUSE HES YOUR SON!!! LOVE HIM BECAUSE HE IS HIM!!! BE PROUD OF HIM, TELL HIM HOW GOOD HE LOOKS, SERVE HIM DINNER, SHOW HIM YOU LOVE HIM SHOW U CARE, GIVE HIM A KISS GOOD DAY AND YOU WONT BE CRYING AT NIGHT ANYMORE!!!!

HAPPY CHANUKAH MIRICALS DO HAPPEN!!